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I'm letting it all out in this blog again...

Yesterday, I sent her a bunch of different colored roses to show my sincerity to her how much I love her. It always crawl into my mind that I know there's still something left from her for me. Since this morning I she was not the same anymore. I just don't know why. She isn't replying to my message anymore and she seems to ignore me now. I felt so bad about it. I qualify symptoms of major depression as I was reading a book for five hours yesterday and understanding how coud I cope up with my depression.

Before anything else, I see hope that someday we will be together at the right time. There were promises we promised to each other that I hope we could both stick to that promises. Here it is:

1. She said she still loves me.

2. She said she wants me to be the father of her children. Meaning, her husband.

3. She said that she will get marry 6 years from now, which, she will wait for me and inform me right away.

4. There were things it is only to me that she can do.

5. She said she will do her part so we can be together forever.

I am writing this here so that I will see in the future if these things will be done.

I just love Sharheyll so much that I didn't ever express such love to someone like this before. There's just something in her that stands out from other girls. Because of what happened, I became close to God. I know, with Him, all things are possible. I used to pray to God that He will touch her heart and bring her back to me. I know we can be a great couple.

Just like the story of Jacob and Rachel in the Bible, Jacob sincerely showed his love to Rachel by serving Rachel's father for 7 years before getting married. There is no such greater love a man can show this to the one he loves.

Lord God, I know that when I ask, I know that you will provide. I pray Lord God that you will touch the heart of Sharheyll. Safeguard her heart. I hope that our plans and promises will come true.

I love you so much Sharheyll. I will always be here for you. No matter what!